I'm going to give it another shot.....

So when Allie was a baby and I was home on maternity leave I made my first failed attempt at being a blogger mom. A few months ago, while uploading pictures to shutterfly or photo fish or one of those other online picture stores, I set up another account and vowed to begin blogging. The fact that I can't remember what store it was set up with should be an indication to the outcome of that blogging resolution. So, here we go again..... They say that 3rd time's a charm, so I'm going to put that theory to the test. I am going to post this to Facebook in hopes that my FB friends will keep me honest with this new blogging resolve!

So here goes,
I find myself reflecting a lot over the past year, thinking back over the blessings and disappointments that my family and I have experienced. The final outcome though, when all things considered, is that I am blessed beyond anything that I deserve and could have ever dreamed. 2010 seems to have been a year of trial and error for me. I began the year with a lot of plans and maybe too much ambition. I found out in January that I have a pituitary tumor that has been the culprit for us not having much luck in 2009 trying to get pregnant again. I was started on medication that was to "fix" the pituitary problem and help me be able to get pregnant. As a planner (usually before pray-er) I imagined our Christmas cards this year would be of us sitting around the fireplace of our newly constructed home with Allie and a baby, me having lost about 75 pounds and John poised in his new recliner that we paid cash for along with the house full of new furniture, thanks to the "dream" job that I landed. (Enter sound of scratching record!)

The "blessings" that I thought 2010 were going to hold were not at all what actually unfolded. I was able to change jobs and move to a job where I was making significantly more money.......Only to be miserable and totally unfulfilled by the extra time away from my family it would require. We have had our house for sale for more than a year with no real bites and I was able to get pregnant with the addition of a second medication, only to lose the baby after nearly 12 weeks of absolute misery.

So what were the blessings of 2010 you ask? First of all, I learned that the freedom and flexibility that I enjoy at my job has a price tag on it far more than diamonds and gold. The fact that I can leave work and go surprise Allie and pick her up early is something that I could never replace with any amount of money. God allowed me to taste what the world of a business woman is like and then He allowed me to come back to my old job 6 months later with a new perspective and appreciation for what I have. Secondly, He is teaching me about contentment. He is teaching me that it is OK to want nice things and to want to live in a new neighborhood, but in the meantime, I need to be thankful for what I have and practice being happy in every season of my life. Lastly, He is teaching me just what an awesome blessing it is to be able to be a mom. He knows that my heart desires more children, and I believe that He will fulfill that desire, but in the meantime, I am taking time to really savor every moment with Allie.

So as I look forward to 2011, I want to build on the blessings of 2010 and to hopefully share with you the ups and downs and the simple everyday Graces that God gives this Davis family so that hopefully you can be blessed by the Wow God's of 2011.